IN MY RECENT DIGGING FOR SONGS TO SAMPLE, I, AFTER MANY YEARS CAME ACROSS THIS SONG AGAIN [SCROLL DOWN FOR THE MANHATTANS - AM I LOSING YOU] AND I'M STRUCK BY 1) HOW IT STRIKES A DIFFERENT CHORD WITH ME NOW, RELATING TO THE SONG LINE FOR LINE 2) HOW THE SONG IS SO ON POINT. WHAT MORE CAN BE SAID ABOUT THE SUBJECT, REALLY? THE LYRICS ARE SO SIMPLE, SINCERE, HONEST.
WHILE THERE IS PAIN IN THE LYRICS AND IN THE VOICE OF THE ARTIST'S, THERE IS ALSO SWEETNESS AND BEAUTY (THAT MUCH WAS EVIDENT UPON MY FIRST LISTENING MANY YEARS AGO). LIKEWISE, WAS THE EXPERIENCE OF LOVING AND HAVING LOST. IT'S CRAZY TO THINK HOW THERE WAS ONCE NO DOUBT ON EITHER SIDE OF OUR HOPED-TO-BE FUTURE; THERE WAS NO QUESTION ABOUT IT. I'M AT TIMES DUMBFOUNDED BY HOW THINGS CHANGED, HOW QUICKLY THINGS CHANGED AND HOW MUCH HAD GONE OVERLOOKED. ALAS, IT'S ALL BEHIND MY SHOULDERS AND MORE IMPORTANTLY, ACCEPTED, KNOWING EVERYTHING HAPPENED WITH GOD'S REASONS -WHICH I'VE COME TO UNDERSTAND - AND IT'S ALL FOR THE BEST. THIS IS NOT TO BELITTLE ALL THAT WAS SHARED, NOR IS IT TO SAY THE EXPERIENCE, THE SIX YEARS SPENT, WAS WITHOUT JOY, LOVE AND LEARNING. THOUGH THE LAST FEW PARAGRAPHS OF THAT CHAPTER OF MY LIFE WERE MY WORST DAYS, ALL IN ALL, THAT CHAPTER WAS THEN THE HAPPIEST TIME OF MY LIFE. EVERY OUNCE OF ENERGY, EVERY SECOND OF TIME, EVERY CENT SPENT WAS WELL WORTH IT, EVEN IF IT TO SOME WOULD SEEM LIKE ALL WAS FOR NAUGHT, EVEN IF IN THE END, LOSS, LAST YEAR'S LOSS AND MY MOST TRAGIC LOSS AT THAT, WOULD COME. GOD KNOWS I DID MY BEST.
REFLECTING MOMENTARILY, BUT LOOKING FORWARD ALWAYS :)
